Hi (:
My name is Kristsharon/Kristsanthemum Tea (Huiqi's favourite) and I rock.
Fifteen candles on the 22th March '10. I ♥ Books, Games , and Art.

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at 9:45 AM

I am really exhausted from all the happenings few months. Let it be good or bad, it is a turning point for me. Thanks Huiqi for comforting me and giving  me endless encouragement while i was in a hectic situation I seriously appreciate practically everything which you had done for me.
Our friendship what was left of it, ever since she left us. It was neither fragile or strong..You feared that the wrong words would smash it beyond repair.You used to be able to read me and know why I was upset behind her icy mask. Huiqi/Krykry waiting on the sidelines, while i fought the battles that is the job of a protector. Am i right Huiqi? Proven to myself and everyone watching , I am strong enough to take anything that revolve around me. The closer I drew , the blurrier it gt. So I decided to give up. Maybe I don't deserved happiness,forgiveness,or peace. Or maybe i don't need them?


at 4:04 AM

自从你过世后,我感到很沮丧,对人事物更加冷漠.望着你的琴眼泪会不由自主地流落,但我从未在他人面前流落一滴眼泪.望着窗外的一朵朵白玫瑰,我会猛地把手边的东西甩向四周的墙壁.
这时,心心会悄悄地躲出去,在我看不到她的远方偷偷地看着我,听着我的动静.等到一切恢复沉寂,她又悄悄地走近来 ,眼圈红红的,似乎她必然在我看不到她的远方痛哭却又不敢放声大哭.在我眼里心心的皮肤就像南豆腐一样细嫩白皙.那双天真无邪的杏字眼,像一泓清澈的泉水.在一双天真无邪的杏字眼,含蓄着纯净,纯净的胜过花朵上的露珠.自从母亲过世,心心的眼光失去了欢乐.她望着我:"爱姐说院子里的白玫瑰都盛开了,姐能陪我看出去走走吗？”她总是那么说。我打从心底知道她喜欢花，可自从母亲过世后，看到她所养的花都毫无意义。“不，我不去！“我忿忿地嘶喊着。“就算看见窗外的白玫瑰又有什么意思，母亲不会回来了！“心心扑过来拥抱我，强忍着泪水，说：“就算母亲不在了，也要好好的活下去。。。。“

可是我并不知道，心心的病已经到达那个田地。后来爱姐告诉我，心心常常在夜里辗转反侧心脏也时常痛得无法入睡。她将要结束人生的路程。

那天我又独自躺在沙发上，看着窗外的玫瑰花瓣慢慢地飘落。心心进来了，挡在窗前。“院子里的玫瑰真的盛开了，姐陪我去看看吧！“她憔悴的脸上出现哀求的眼色与撒娇的语调.令我不得不答应她"什么时候?" "姐我想和你看一整天.母亲说过日出的白玫瑰,血红血红的,宛如红宝石洒在绿油油的草地上.日落的白玫瑰散发出一抹留恋的柔光,令人着迷.而在满天的星斗,夜空就像是捆绑在深蓝色的丝线上每粒宝石,闪闪发亮.每一束玫瑰都代表母亲在陪伴着我们,母亲还存活着在我们心里." 我们纷纷不敢望着对方.

又到了下个秋天,我从国外回到这个伤心地.心心陪我去看院子里的玫瑰.白玫瑰衬托出高洁,淡雅,深沉,在秋风中的夜晚正开的烂漫.我渐渐懂得母亲最后的遗言.心心也懂.我练要同舟共济,在一块儿,好好地活.........


at 1:07 AM

Today, my boyfriend came over and met my parents.




Then he left, and my Dad told me that my boyfriend loved me.



I smiled and asked, “How do you know?”



He said, “Because he looks at you the same way I look at your Mother.”


at 4:40 AM

Don't be afraid to give your best in any battles, the greatest loss isn't about won or lose, success or fail. It's about what've you gain, what've you done & what've you gave in the battles.


"When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on."♥,


at 3:37 AM

Dear KristSharon Lo, below are your Personality Tests result:


Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Yourself: You are really hiding your true self.

Girlfriend/boyfriend: You like serious, smart and determined people.

Relationship: You are ready to commit.

Love: Your have very sensible tactics.

Education: Education is very important in life.

Job: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job.

Success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go.

Afraid: You are afraid of things that you cannot control.


flight. at 3:23 AM

The sun had just dipped below the horizon ,and the pink desert sunset was swiftly fading to a deep and dark night sky.She sat motionless in the car,she felt brittle. As if a single touch could shatter her into a million pieces. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath , trying to stop herself from crying.



She told herself."I have no where to go , i have no one to rely on.I am scared "



She blew through three red lights and hit an open highway,she felt dog- tired.She slumped down over the steering wheel , her head resting on her arms and her arms is resting on the steering wheel with a white knuckled grip.Thinking of the look at Kane's face.



She was frozen, unable to do anything but curl up in a ball in the front seat ,hug her knees to her chest and close her eyes against the darkness surrounding her.Tears were flowing from her eyes,her face was wet , sticky against the leather seat.



Her life was in ruins. She was reduced to rubbled. She had murdered someone.



She phoned Beth.



" Hello Beth , Kaia here"



" Hello Kaia, such a surprise, what's up?"



"Erm nothing I guess."



Another mistake. She threw the phone down, cursing herself. She just couldn't do anything right.She yelled



"Great idea , throwing yourself to her mercy." Kaia said to herself.



The night was fading and the detail blurring.She was afraid .She just wanted someone to lie beside her , hold her , whisper that he loved her and that everything would be okay. She did not need to know if her mother would miss her , or if her father would show care and concern to her. She just needed someone.



Most of the time Kaia hung to her memories of the past, to her heard-edge city persona. She hung to it with a death grips , for fear of forgetting who she was and where she had come from.She still remembered clearly how she had murdered Kane.



It was intense and it was sexy. She got what she wanted. His life, she could not stand. He had preyed on her weakness and duped her into a relationship based on lies.It was true , he had manipulated her. She was stupid enough to let him do it.She despised herself for her weakness. He was like a poison to her system,corroding the words.



She could nott believe she had once found this man adorable, fantasizing about his dark eyes and crooked smile. But after she had found out the truth, everything about him repelled her now. Even the accent seemed phony. No one should do this to her, no one had the power to toy over her feelings like a puppet. She was the one with the power. Nothing would h appen unless she wanted it to happened.



Kane used to tell her "We are two of a kind , kaia."



His words were icy , cold , detached , heartless.But now the memories flowed faster , bringing her back in time through the misery , through the pain. She had wished he was still alive. She did not desired for any revenge if she know this was the ending.She wanted to flee , flee from the reality.



She didn't want his forgiveness.

She didn't want him back

She wanted him gone.

Gone;but not forgotten.



She started her engine and headed for the sea. She remembered the first time he kissed her. It was a wet , sloppy kiss,short on romance , long on the breath and his trusting tongue. He was neither easy nor safe. He was a player. Life with him was a risk , everyday was a new challenge.



A loud explosion after the car had sunk into the sea. There she was, sinking into the deep sea. Together forever. It was a kind of promise made to each other,before they knew anything about a world that could tear them apart. It was such a naive vision of the future, pure and innocent promised.



Today,. Kaia was finally free.


at 6:21 AM

亲爱的，如果有一天我放弃了你，请不要怀疑我是否恋上另一个人，是因为我发觉你不珍惜我，离开你并非我愿意，我不想拿放弃当威胁，因为那两个字我不曾轻易说出口因为我爱你．假如有天我真正选择了离开，那么对不起不是想要你的挽留，而是对你真的死了心，有些人总是在失去之后才知道曾经的美好，在我决定离开你之前我会给你好多机会，如果你把我给你的机会当做你放纵的资本，有天我会真的走出来...虽然我会痛会伤心可我了解自己一旦爱上一个人会全心全意，


at 7:17 AM

I didn't want her forgiveness.
I want you back.
I want you gone.
Gone But not forgotten.


Hope spring eternal
Twelve long streamed roses.
Each dye an inky black.
And that card.
Gone but not forgotten.

She was shivering.She had no one to rely on. It was cold , a cloudless winter night and she curled up in front of her bed. Her cheek pressed against on the cold wall.

She wasn't crying.She must have been, at some point. Her face was wet , sticky against the wall.

Yup ,she have nowhere to go.
 She have no one.

She was tired of fighting , of moving. She just wanted it all to stop. Just for a while.

She was spent.
She was tearless
And she was on her own.

The night was fading, the detail blurring.